Autism - how to behave?

Autism- telling us how to behave?

 

This all came about when two weeks ago I received a phone call from an organisation concerned with rape and sexual abuse, which is in my other blogs, back to this blog. I was told off for being too direct and to the point as there was a mix up about my appointment time and I got no apology for the mix up, despite the fact that the person was clearly wrong. I was subsequently told not to be direct as this might upset someone and we don’t want that do we.

 

Me being just recently being diagnosed with Autism thought how patronising and offensive and this got me thinking about how people keep making assumptions about us, for example I kept having to correct the individual that I truly had Autism, not Aspergers (its okay I do know what that is).

 

Just be careful about the assumptions we make and just think?

Psychologist's!!!!

 

Why do we have Psychologists who appear to be able to treat damaged people who have complex PTSD?

 

First of all, in the last couple of days I have found that the psychologist I was referred to by a local mental health trust was not qualified to treat me, especially with me a damaged individual diagnosed with Complex PTSD in July 2020 and this was not due to the pandemic by the way.

I am a survivor from the boarding school movement, unfortunately I was systematically bullied from day one and then later in my second year right through to when I left sexually abused, to the point that this has ruined my life, yes that is right I came out of the now defunct Eccles Hall School with no qualifications whatsoever and I was mortified and of course being sexually abused meant that my mind was elsewhere.

 I now find out some years later that because of my life being ruined and being referred to a psychologist that I could have and should have been referred to an alternative treatment in the first place, such as the sexual abuse services but instead of this is have been sent around the houses and sent on a fishing exercise to the point that I am no further forward to when I was referred in July 2020.

 I was told by Health in Mind that the Sexual Abuse service would not take me as I was in their word “so Angry and Cross” that they would not take you on, and that you had to go through this programme first before I could go down this route. This now appears to be utter rubbish and as if they would like to go down their own set of protocols. Sod their protocols I am here a person in my own right who is seeking professional help and all you can do is to fob me off.

 

Mental Health Awareness Week 2021

 

Let me start firstly that to people who do not know me that I have Complex PTSD, due to the fact that I was systematically severely bullied from 11-16 and then sexually abused from age 12-16 and on top of this from a young age living with undiagnosed Autism.

 

This is so you know who I am and why trust is not something that comes easy to me, because of what I have been through, and yes I hear you say but you have had therapy haven’t you, yes I answer which appears to have been a complete waste of time, a waste of time why?

 

A waste of time because it was with a so called Psychologist who is employed by Essex partnership University Trust a mental health who appears to be qualified with dealing with people with complex PTSD and it turns out after some research from myself that has not got a clue, and is taking the PTSD approach, but is wrong with that, erm excuse me Complex PTSD is not the same as PTSD, you should read my blog on that which is very informative.

 

Back to the main point of this blog etc, what I am getting at hear is that we have a system of mental health services that are at the very least shit and have no idea about the individuals wants ideas etc, because they expect you to come up with a list of expectations at your first meeting, but should this be part of the Multi-disciplinary Team approach to which you should be included, but then you see this may happen in other trusts up and up down the country but this doesn’t here. Then at the first meeting the shrink head driller call them what you want should have your list of preconceived idea as to what the hell you are talking about, but instead they treat you like you are a blithering idiot.

 

You see the whole system is stacked against you and as for coproduction they have no idea as to what your talking about, so this is a form of mental torture within it’s self and perhaps gaslighting?

 

Unfortunately myself and a colleague from an organisation I used to be part of have suffered at the hand of certain people who had a tendency to use a dreadful means of mental torture known as Gaslighting /gaslighted a form of bullying against the individual who then twists your mental health condition to make you seem like you can’t make sense of what is going on that your mental health suffers due to a person’s inability to be able to not understand your own needs.

 

This is not very nice to the point that whatever you say to try and defend or make point that the individual makes your life hell to the point that if you have cause to make complaint about her actions and behaviour towards you and being in a positions of authority you in turn suffer at the hands of her immediate boss that the ensuing complaint is turned back on you and you are made to look like an idiot and a bully, also you later find out that certain people use their mental health as a ranking exercise mainly they may have had depression and they use this against you, even though they may have had it hard, but i am not one too judge (erm yes well, shall we leave it there) when you do raise the point that you have complex PTSD and at this point they switch off and state that in no uncertain words that your mental illness can’t be as bad as you state it. I am not about to start a rankings war here but it is called complex because i have more than one trigger point so there.

 It doesn’t bother me anymore as I am now a freelance individual who can do what he likes and be more pirate and fight back!

 

I am fighting the system and bigots all the time now right fro organisations that treat people with mental health issues as twits and idiots or head cases. We are not we are people who are just wired differently or have that lampshade moment. Yes we could make our trouble makers walk that plank. Do you know it brings up the image of the sharks swimming around with a serviette and knives and forks going yum. “Nice n tasty” and reality that fact is oh yuck, imagine the sharks go oh it’s a culture think yuck it leaves a nasty taste in the mouth and the shark is unwell and then coughs it up, the second shark feels something very uncomfortable slide down inside and really a nasty surprise for those poor sharks.

 

Being pirate is about challenging the system and not taking any prisoners along the way, if you can help it, so I use my shared experiences no matter how painful to bring about change out there in a world so much against people who are seen as different who are not listened to.